Some more ramblings and an idea!

Oh look, more lack of updates. Sorry guys. If anyone actually reads this that is...
So, some rambling. More and more, I've come to believe that Windows (the computer operating system that is) hates me. It crashes. Freezes. Doesn't save things when I tell it too. I know it may work well for other people... But I swear, WINDOWS HATES ME. It makes me sad. *sad face* All I want is a computer to game and draw on... *punts Windows* Be nice to me! *Pouts*
So onto some rambling about my art work.
OH MY GODS LADIES AND GENTLEMEN I GOT COMMISSIONED! In other words, someone is paying me to draw something for them! Ten bucks! Woo hoo! I'm on my way to no longer being a starving artist! Ha ha!
Also, there's a contest on dA... To draw a colossus. And my sketch so far looks AWESOME. Imagine a spider body, "human" torso with the arms bandaged to the chest. A cloth around the mouth and another around the eyes. And it's 150 feet tall~ *grins* Good luck killing it~ That's for the "death" Rift.
My second idea is to draw an insect (either dragonfly or butterfly) with a pitcher plant on it's back. The pitcher plant is the one in control. Heh heh. That one is still in the works. It's for the "life" Rift.

And now... For my idea...
As most of you know, I am a writer. I write and I want to publish a book. Several books acutally.
But more and more, the idea of leaving my stories in the hands of an actual publish is making me get cold feet about the idea.
You could have the most awesome story in the world. No plot holes or anything.
But if they don't think it will sell...
They'll ask you to make huge changes in order for them to even consider selling it. Get rid of this character, drop this chapter, change the ending, add in a character who acts like this... By the end of it all you could have a completly butchered version of your story... And they still may not sell it! Heck, they may ask you to make more changes!
Now, for some writers, this is easy. They view a story and their characters as non-living things and thus, they don't care about making changes like this. As long as they can get some version of their story on the market, they are happy.
BUT. I'm not like that.
My stories are very precious to me. I'd love to say like children to me, but since I don't have kids yet, I don't know how it feels to love a kid. But you get the idea. I can't just change things when they make perfect sense in the story. Sure, I don't mind changing things if there is a gaping plot hole or if something doesn't make sense. But to get rid of a character the publishers think will drag the book down will create plot holes. So you have to fill in those plot holes by making some changes to other chacacters. But that creates more plot holes! And then you have to make more changes.
So I can't risk my story being butchered like that. I can't even write stories where I would make the changes like that just to get my name out there so they will be less likely to ask for changes in my really special stories. I would become attached to the characters and the story and any little changes I would make would just kill me.
So, what am I going to do? Well, I'll get my stories edited for grammar and spelling and plot holes. My Dad would be great for this, if he had the time. Considering he just got hired to edit papers and such for a Major General in the Canadian Military and he's an avid reader I'm pretty sure he is qualified to edit stories for me. And once my stories are edited... I'll put the first chapter up here. Just the first chapter. And eventually, I'll sent up a paypal donation. For probably about $3.50, the person donating would recieve the rest of my story in a non-editable file (if I can do that... I'm pretty sure I can do that..!). And eventually, once I make enough money, I'd turn my stories into actual books. The people who already donated would get their books for free (I would sign them too!) and then... We'll see. I can't risk my stories being ruined by a publisher. I may try to send it around first, but if they ask me to make any huge changes despite no plot holes...
Up here my stories will go!
And I know this will be hard. I know I will likely not become a famous writer this way.
But my goal isn't for ME to be known...
It's for my characters and my characters' stories to be known. Their stories can only be told one way, and to drop a major plot element or character is to change the story.
So wish me luck guys!